Saturday, October 23, 2010

misery business

darth on cat!

Good, better, best never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best. 
May the Force be with you.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Killswitch Engage - My Curse

video of the day.
act im not feeling very well...
this video made my day so far..
hope u'll njoy the video :D

another thoughts.

Chase your dreams, But always know the road that leads you home again.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Far Far!

Dear Today. 
This is my song, it really made my day.
GOD help me get through this...
il pray and pray and shall never stop!

Far Far by Yael Naim.

Far far, there’s this little girl
She was praying for something to happen to her
Everyday she writes words and more words
Just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
And she’s strong when the dreams come cos’ they
Take her, cover her, they are all over
The reality looks far now, but don’t go

How can you stay outside?
There’s a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?
There’s a beautiful mess inside

Oh oh oh oh

Far far, there’s this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzle in her eyes, tickle in her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don’t you run away already
please don’t go oh oh

How can you stay outside?
there’s a beautiful mess inside
how an you stay outside?
there’s a beautiful mess inside

Take a deep breath and dive
There’s a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?

There’s a beautiful mess
Beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there’s this little girl
She was praying for something big to happen to her
Every night she hears beautiful strange music
It’s everywhere there’s nowhere to hide
But if it fades she begs
“Oh lord don’t take it from me, don’t take it”

She says, “I guess i’ll have to give it birth
To give it birth
I guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
I guess i have to, have to give it birth
There’s a beautiful mess inside and it’s everywhere

Just look at yourself now
Deep inside
Deeper than you ever dared
There’s a beautiful mess inside
Beautiful mess inside

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

things we forget.

Forget a grand entrance. Everybody knows

 it's the exit 

they'll remember.

- gossip girl -


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

a night.

procrastinate less.

tomorrow i will...

you cant break a broken heart.

dear you,
some wounds never heal with the slightest tug of the surrounding supple flesh that they bleed and burn.
bringing that old familiar ache.
i cant bring myself to close that i cant help but pull the flesh and taunt the wound.
i long for closure, for a closed scar that i'd rather be marked and past this vulnerable and weak.
God i just wanna bash my hopeless head against the wall sometimes or maybe every time you came across my mind.
i just hope that this hopeless wish of me and you will just fade away.
as my dreams are growing into frustrations when i hear your voice.
hush just dont speak a word about the dreams that i live for.
it really hurts to reach you when im down.
as if you can actually hear me saying this...

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer again to anyone...
Please don't get me wrong...
I'll never let this go,
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't wanna be alone,
But now I feel like I don't know you
Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home
Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
feeling empty
I see a tear inside when you're turned away
Another wound that I'd take back
If I could fill your heart just once and then
I'd take you now where we could live again
We tried so hard to understand but we can't

We held the world out in our hands
and you ran away
It takes some time to let you go
And it shows
Cause all we know is falling, it falls
Remember cause I know that we wont forget at all
I've hoped for  change
It gets better everyday
I've hoped for change
but still I feel  the same
You never never said
This wasn’t what you wanted
Was it, 
Was it
This isn’t  what you wanted
So what would you think of me now,
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
Now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in


dear you, 

call me crazy
call me pathetic and call me loser
but i really really dont care
somehow i still cant forget about you
i still cant forget how much fun we had together before
i even bang my head on the wall just to forget bout you
i learned the hardest way
but still
i keep seeing you in my dreams
i thought everything's over
but i guess it haven't
what i feel rite now
and for those times before
it was real and it is now
i know i cant denying the past
what we had, what i had with you
is simply the best moments ive ever had
i wont deny it now
and i wont deny it later
you'll always be apart of me
now and then,
the anger, the pain and the joy
is simply because of you
i will remember that

a fallen star

 ps: i love you paramore!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

On friendship :D

dear mr/ms anonymous,

hey awak!
awak okay?
hopefully ure fine insyaAllah..
well today its about me talking on friendship.
hermm what say awak about ideal friendship?
till now i still cant answer the question myself.
what's my idea of an ideal friendship?
haha frankly saya browse google, yahoo, blogs semata-mata nak cari jawapan on true friendships.
well they did give me plenty of answers.
and those answers sure did give me goosebumps.
hehe series saya xtipu!
sometimes it could relate to me for things that happened to me all this time.
yerp saya selalu dengar,
 friends is someone who tries to be there for you till the end.
even if they unable to be there for you, there must be thousand of explanations.
there should be!
just to make sure you know that they tried their very best :)
for me,
 friends is more on someone who doesnt push you into answering questions that you dont wanna answer..
and they would give you time and wait for you to open up on your own.
friends also is someone who will just had a good time with you no matter what ure doing.
and friends is someone who doesnt talk behind your back.
plus if we did wrong, friends will always there to correct you, am i right?
dont you agrre with me?
awak rasa cmtu x?
sometimes, kawan mmg xsedar yang dia penah buat silap secara sengaja atau tidak.
saya sedar, im not perfect and so do awak kan?
i wish this was heaven and so i could tell awak that perfect(sempurna) people do exist :S
but the fact is it aint, honey!
well a true friendship no one can really define what it really means.
different people different cases.
saya harap awak faham.
so believe in ur own friendship and ur friends.
if awak take ur own time to think about what is friendship and choosing the best friend among you..
then u havent think it carefully and awak urself not taking the time to love ur own friendship!
friendship is something for you not to judge but for you to embrace and make your soul to ur friends.
if you did that, then welcome to the world of FRIENDSHIP!
haha saya rase saya da cakap byk ni..
lets forgive all that hurt you and forget none that help you okay?
saya minta maaf di atas segala kesulitan..
cause rite now im actually smiling cause i really have no idea what is going on.
saya xtaw ape masalah awak, but i'll bet it'll be hard to pronounce.
but its least awak berani lontarkan pedapat :D
saya pun belajar banyak from awak...
yang penting have some balls to face that person kan awak?
hehe okaylaaa....
hopefully saya xlupe wish awak;


  ps: i love you whoever you are.
  you are what you are and no one can change that!
   thank you for your wonderful speech.
  thanks for making me the center of your world tee hee.
   saya suka. suka awak!terima kasih :D