Saturday, October 23, 2010

misery business

darth on cat!

Good, better, best never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best. 
May the Force be with you.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Killswitch Engage - My Curse

video of the day.
act im not feeling very well...
this video made my day so far..
hope u'll njoy the video :D

another thoughts.

Chase your dreams, But always know the road that leads you home again.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Far Far!

Dear Today. 
This is my song, it really made my day.
GOD help me get through this...
il pray and pray and shall never stop!

Far Far by Yael Naim.

Far far, there’s this little girl
She was praying for something to happen to her
Everyday she writes words and more words
Just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
And she’s strong when the dreams come cos’ they
Take her, cover her, they are all over
The reality looks far now, but don’t go

How can you stay outside?
There’s a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?
There’s a beautiful mess inside

Oh oh oh oh

Far far, there’s this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzle in her eyes, tickle in her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don’t you run away already
please don’t go oh oh

How can you stay outside?
there’s a beautiful mess inside
how an you stay outside?
there’s a beautiful mess inside

Take a deep breath and dive
There’s a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?

There’s a beautiful mess
Beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there’s this little girl
She was praying for something big to happen to her
Every night she hears beautiful strange music
It’s everywhere there’s nowhere to hide
But if it fades she begs
“Oh lord don’t take it from me, don’t take it”

She says, “I guess i’ll have to give it birth
To give it birth
I guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
I guess i have to, have to give it birth
There’s a beautiful mess inside and it’s everywhere

Just look at yourself now
Deep inside
Deeper than you ever dared
There’s a beautiful mess inside
Beautiful mess inside

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

things we forget.

Forget a grand entrance. Everybody knows

 it's the exit 

they'll remember.

- gossip girl -


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

a night.

procrastinate less.

tomorrow i will...

you cant break a broken heart.

dear you,
some wounds never heal with the slightest tug of the surrounding supple flesh that they bleed and burn.
bringing that old familiar ache.
i cant bring myself to close that i cant help but pull the flesh and taunt the wound.
i long for closure, for a closed scar that i'd rather be marked and past this vulnerable and weak.
God i just wanna bash my hopeless head against the wall sometimes or maybe every time you came across my mind.
i just hope that this hopeless wish of me and you will just fade away.
as my dreams are growing into frustrations when i hear your voice.
hush just dont speak a word about the dreams that i live for.
it really hurts to reach you when im down.
as if you can actually hear me saying this...

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer again to anyone...
Please don't get me wrong...
I'll never let this go,
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't wanna be alone,
But now I feel like I don't know you
Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home
Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
feeling empty
I see a tear inside when you're turned away
Another wound that I'd take back
If I could fill your heart just once and then
I'd take you now where we could live again
We tried so hard to understand but we can't

We held the world out in our hands
and you ran away
It takes some time to let you go
And it shows
Cause all we know is falling, it falls
Remember cause I know that we wont forget at all
I've hoped for  change
It gets better everyday
I've hoped for change
but still I feel  the same
You never never said
This wasn’t what you wanted
Was it, 
Was it
This isn’t  what you wanted
So what would you think of me now,
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
Now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in


dear you, 

call me crazy
call me pathetic and call me loser
but i really really dont care
somehow i still cant forget about you
i still cant forget how much fun we had together before
i even bang my head on the wall just to forget bout you
i learned the hardest way
but still
i keep seeing you in my dreams
i thought everything's over
but i guess it haven't
what i feel rite now
and for those times before
it was real and it is now
i know i cant denying the past
what we had, what i had with you
is simply the best moments ive ever had
i wont deny it now
and i wont deny it later
you'll always be apart of me
now and then,
the anger, the pain and the joy
is simply because of you
i will remember that

a fallen star

 ps: i love you paramore!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

On friendship :D

dear mr/ms anonymous,

hey awak!
awak okay?
hopefully ure fine insyaAllah..
well today its about me talking on friendship.
hermm what say awak about ideal friendship?
till now i still cant answer the question myself.
what's my idea of an ideal friendship?
haha frankly saya browse google, yahoo, blogs semata-mata nak cari jawapan on true friendships.
well they did give me plenty of answers.
and those answers sure did give me goosebumps.
hehe series saya xtipu!
sometimes it could relate to me for things that happened to me all this time.
yerp saya selalu dengar,
 friends is someone who tries to be there for you till the end.
even if they unable to be there for you, there must be thousand of explanations.
there should be!
just to make sure you know that they tried their very best :)
for me,
 friends is more on someone who doesnt push you into answering questions that you dont wanna answer..
and they would give you time and wait for you to open up on your own.
friends also is someone who will just had a good time with you no matter what ure doing.
and friends is someone who doesnt talk behind your back.
plus if we did wrong, friends will always there to correct you, am i right?
dont you agrre with me?
awak rasa cmtu x?
sometimes, kawan mmg xsedar yang dia penah buat silap secara sengaja atau tidak.
saya sedar, im not perfect and so do awak kan?
i wish this was heaven and so i could tell awak that perfect(sempurna) people do exist :S
but the fact is it aint, honey!
well a true friendship no one can really define what it really means.
different people different cases.
saya harap awak faham.
so believe in ur own friendship and ur friends.
if awak take ur own time to think about what is friendship and choosing the best friend among you..
then u havent think it carefully and awak urself not taking the time to love ur own friendship!
friendship is something for you not to judge but for you to embrace and make your soul to ur friends.
if you did that, then welcome to the world of FRIENDSHIP!
haha saya rase saya da cakap byk ni..
lets forgive all that hurt you and forget none that help you okay?
saya minta maaf di atas segala kesulitan..
cause rite now im actually smiling cause i really have no idea what is going on.
saya xtaw ape masalah awak, but i'll bet it'll be hard to pronounce.
but its least awak berani lontarkan pedapat :D
saya pun belajar banyak from awak...
yang penting have some balls to face that person kan awak?
hehe okaylaaa....
hopefully saya xlupe wish awak;


  ps: i love you whoever you are.
  you are what you are and no one can change that!
   thank you for your wonderful speech.
  thanks for making me the center of your world tee hee.
   saya suka. suka awak!terima kasih :D

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


ye saya!
yess i am!!
very LOUD!!
yess very very LOUD!
ye saya mmg mcm tu.
kenape yer?
ape?x paham lg?
nak kne gune LOUDspeaker ker?
yesss saya mmg bising dan kuat!
mmg btol laaa.
saya xtipu pun.
i am a LOUD person.
like it or leave it.

Sunday, September 26, 2010


....hmmm....lazy lazy and veryy lazyy....lately ive been really lazy like rally really lazy!!!
guys i need sum help plss!!!urrghhh stress out w open house like almost every week...sume pegi without fail!hahaha n noww m gaining sum weight,hmm cmna???i do eat a lot fer d past few weeks!!diet time is ON!!

orayte tis is basically what i have fer noww...i need to speed things up!!!!GIat MARA works works and tons of works! act no ideas,..seriously creative mode turn off due to my laziness urghhhh....

okay m soo stressed out w this pic!ive rotated tis pix like a zillion time bt still it turn out like tis..urghhhh stress again!
so pouches anyone?

make up bags :)

owh btw tis is lucky!hehe die pun gedik nak masuk blog hahaha

okayy dats it fer noww.
seriously blank.
no ideas T.T
peace out!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

here we go again!

And here we go again
With all the things you said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant
I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. 

 Well, I'm not.


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

im with you.

awak okay x?
nway try to think of it this way...
he helped u grow,
he helped you find something you're actually capable of
you had great memories with him
but it's time to share it with someone else, ryte???
awak boley sy taw pny :D
lets pray dat he'll
be happy...
if this is what he wants, i truly hope that he will be happy.
just dont say we didnt try because you know we did...
menangis laa if that makes you feel any better.
as always m here with you ;D
i love you!

u know u can always count on me :)

open house hari raya :D

i love open houses!!esp on hari raya weeeeeeeeeee free food!good people and duit raya yahooo!(m not dat old to get duet raya heh??)

in the end its always about taking pictures, cherish every happy moments while we still can :)

s0 guys keep smiling, and wishing you all selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin :D

Monday, September 20, 2010

let go!

sometimes, i just realize that it’s hard to see the beauty in people, especially when they treat you unkindly. 
forgiving is such an important character that everyone should strive to have.
and somehow this particular moment..
im thinking of you...i dunno why..
but that thats it...its time to let go everything...
a fresh start by forgiving you..
 and this is also for all of those who have hurt me in the past, intentionally, or non-intentionally.
i forgive you. 
i forgive you, for you, and i forgive you for me.
to those whom i have hurt intentionally, or non-intentionally, i ask for your forgiveness.
life is too beautiful to waste on pain, hurt, anger, and spite. 

Let’s enjoy this beauty together. 

Let’s enjoy the beauty within.

     True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it be lost.  by Charles Caleb Colton


best friends just wont leave your side.

listen awak,
i know everything will be okay!and you're gonna be fine. i promise you...
I'll lean on awak and awak lean on me and we'll be okay!btol x?
cause you are my dearest friend and i wont let anything happen to you or hurt you!
thats what are friends for, ayte?
i heard someone says, forgive all that hurt you, forget none that help you.
thats what ive been doing ryte now...
i am learning to breath so can awak...
i know you can do it!you and me together will get through this. 
i'll help you my dear.
and the most i can do for awak right now is simply to be your friend...
i'll shall never leave you and will be with you through thick or thin..
and awak tau kan, i love you very very muchh...just stay strong and have faith in yourself.
DOnt wory i'll pray for you, i'll pray for both of us.
we shall find the truth sooner or later
and God will lead us the way...
awak!sy janji! :D

goodnyte awak, sleep tight and take care of yourself cause i really do...