Saturday, June 25, 2011

Promises, promises.

Incredibly awesome and totally a lovely song!
Really moved by the lyrics and the sound of Brandon Boyd's voice.

Incubus Concert
23rd July 2011
Stadium Negara

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Wait for me.

Wait for me by Konstantin Simonov.

Wait for me and I'll return, only wait very hard.
Wait when you are filled with sorrow as you watch the yellow rain.
Wait when the wind sweeps the snowdrifts.
Wait in the sweltering heat.
Wait when others have stopped waiting, forgetting their yesterdays.
Wait even when from afar no letters come for you.
Wait even when others are tired of waiting.

Wait for me and I'll return, but wait patiently.
Wait even when you are told that you should forget.
Wait even when my mother and son think I am no more.
And when friends sit around the fire drinking to my memory
Wait and do not hurry to drink to my memory too.

Wait for me and I'll return, defying every death.
And let those who do not wait say that I was lucky.
They will never understand that in the midst of death
You with your waiting saved me.
Only you and I will know how I survived:
It was because you waited as no one else did.

Somehow I find this an inspiration. :)

You'll see.

And there will come a time, you'll see where no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.


Wednesday, June 15, 2011


Song for today.
My heart is melting.
I just love it.
Need I say more?

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Don't Worry.

Saturday, June 11, 2011


I hate the feeling when you know you're going to cry.
Your lips quiver, your heart pounds, your eyes sting.
Your face clenches up, and then tears start to fall.

You can't stop them, no matter how hard you try.
And it's not little tears that slide down your cheeks, it's big tears that make your eyes 
red and puffy, your face tear-stained and your body heave.

You can't stop the tears and as you lie on your bed alone,
you think of what could you have possibly done to stop the pain.
Stop the suffering.

Stop this, stop what you're going through.

But there's nothing you can do, nothing anyone can say.
It's the kind of tears and pain that need to be cried out, not talked out.
And you know that you're hurting people you love, but you can't help it.
And sometimes you just don't care.

I know how you feel.
Believe me.


Friday, June 10, 2011

The List

You are more than a list of mistakes and if anyone tells you otherwise, let it be the last they make.

You again.

Today I’m feeling down, I woke up fine, go to work, meeting clients and friends, until that evening the first couple of hours took my mood way down..i feel alone, left out, completely lost, insecure, ugly, and depressed..Just a simple ugly word can turn your mood down, like completely change the whole mode. It is the worst feeling when it involved people that close to you, people that you think will never hurt you or say mean things to you but eventually they did. It hurts okay. I love my friends but sometimes if they said something hurtful is it possible for me to feel this way? Is it fair enough when I treated them nicely but they said mean things to you? I don't know maybe I did something wrong or people getting annoyed by me. But hey people do make mistakes, intentionally or unintentionally. And YOU don't have the rights to say MEAN things when YOU can actually talk nicely. Seriously I don't know how to put this in words. It sounds funny. Maybe. Or it sounds pathetic or whatever you may call it. But I just  don't care.. Well I just need to talk but no one would care enough to actually listen..It’s so strange being surrounded with so many people, yet feeling this companionless..Everyone is busy with their own thing..Yerp,no one truly cares..We’re just another number..That’s all we are..

Thursday, June 9, 2011

yellow sunshine!

Yes I love YELLOW!
YELLOW my sunshinee. Hehe!
Brighten up my day!
Makes me happy!
What you got to do is find a reason to smile everyday. :D
Spread the love everyone!
Love u!

Melaka; 5th June 2011
Feeling happy at the beach hihi ^.^

Yang Ikhlas.


Monday, June 6, 2011


still getting butterflies every once in a while.


Miss you.
Yes, I am.
My heart scream for you.
I miss you.
Yes, I really am.
Miss you.

Thursday, June 2, 2011


I heart you my dear bffs!
just stay by my side and never let me go.
just stay you, not anyone else.
You're the reason why I smile and giggles,
You thought me the joys of life when my world seems to fall apart,
and not a single guy can make me happy as you are my dear dear BFFs!
Friends are like forever!
I'll always be here for you too.

 izzaida si nakal!<3 u sis!haha.
My dearest Ez,
Thank you for everything. You show me how to see things in different way. It feels like heaven. maybe this is what heaven is where we go through life collecting people and places we love, and they become our heaven just like you Zee ;). Thank you for being such a good friend. It's been 11years now. Still we fought, we cried, we played and laughed and here we go again still together and still strong. hope we can keep this forever. I lean for you and you'll lean for me. We have each other's back. Promise you I will always be there for you no matter how. Senoritass I love you!

pnut si cantik!!miss u senoritass!
My dearest Pnut,
Even though we spend a very short time together, I already missed you. Please do come back here immediately for I need your jokes like real fast haha!Missing the old times!We should catch up later. More stories to tell you!By the way, I promise you I'll take care of Ez and uncle for you okay!I'll be a good sister. K.yuyue yang sweet gitu hehe. Anyway Pnut, really thank you for making me laugh all the time!Senoritasss I love you!

nadia si sexy!!hotty!:D
Hey miss nadia dear,
Hey yo hotty!Haha its funny whenever I remember our first meeting on how we get to know each other hahah. Well thanks to Mr. Ass-hole (Sy***i) and Mr. Whore (S***i) you know who!or else I will never get to know you. So this is what we call life, where we meet people in weird ways, literally(I might say that la haha) but still we manage to create a bond which no one will understand other than us. Well, I have to say, I have a great time shopping with you(habis duit all the time hahah). Hang out till 5am with Azizi. Paramore's concert, overnight at your house, and so other crazy little things that we did together. Aahh missing the good times. Time flies. Like real fast aite?Hermm, I wish you were with me. Thank you for always there for me whenever I need you to be. You're the best!

 halim karim si egois!:P
Halim Karim dear,
Herm what to say about you ey mista?Hahaha what can I say about you is that you're funny and very thoughtful person!Yes, you're a very thoughtful person!(daymm kene admit okay!) You always giving me a good advice on how I should take responsibility in every actions I took in life. And the best part about you,suke tgk korean moviesand suke Justin bieber!hahaha how cute is that???Tp pening jugak kadang-kadang tu hahah.But seriously you're a really good friend to me and Ez (though ko suke zassss aku!)haha :) Thank you and thank you again for everything halim :)

shazrina si manis!hehe :)
Shazrina my goddes,
Seriously I really admire your flawless skin and kelembutan (though ada garang sket!haha) You're kinda cool and I like to hang out with you more. It's been blessed for me to have a great friend like you. Owh, thank you for listening to all my crappiness and my stupid stories haha. And last but not least, thank you for all the supports. I shall remember what you told me to do!hehe ^.^ Gambate yuyue!!
ps:  We should hang out more so I can write more about you LOL!

joshee si jahat!haha bluek!;p
A weird meeting with him. A childhood friend I guess. Always giving me this mixed feelings. Sometimes like I just want to punch him right in the face. Sometimes, feels like I just want to sit and talk with him the whole day. Just hanging out and watching movies with you, nothing else just a good laugh with you. That's it. But most of the time you always making me bengang hahah. Yes suke zass I!But hey I still like talking with you. Thank you for the good times for all this while.
Ps: you still bff yang jahat!hahaha jahat in a good way kot.(motif??):P

ps: friendship till the pig starts to fly :) you guys ROCK my world!!

Monday, May 30, 2011

The Promise.

I call it a day! Ha ha ha not that something awesome had happened. It just me feeling plain but good. Humph what was that supposed to mean by the way?Hahaha okay I'm totally blur right now but hey this is the higlights of the day. I get to taste honey dew for the first time in my life ever!! Well, it's pretty awesome I guess. :p

Okaylaa that's not the point. This is me here again, rumbling over life which haven't change a bit since last year. Well, I thought this year is going to be different but it's not. Ha ha ha. I dont know which part is funny but somehow after all what had happened for the last few months, yerp its pretty funny now. I look funny, that's what I think but still I manage to smile even it hurts me so much like I could kill someone with just one punch!!

Alright, I think that's enough for today. Promise you, I'll get back to you. I will write something more. Promise promise promise you I will never keep things to myself again! Again you are my world for now :)

I love you.

Friday, May 27, 2011

An eternity of bliss.

Yes, it's true. I'm back to this blog. Literally my hand is soo gatal to write everything, rite now haha, so just bare with me okay?:)
Hurm well, I have nothing much to tell exactly, but little things did happened. Hope I can tell you in the next few days. (Lets hope I won't be too lazy to update this particular blog :P)
Now I'm more free to write and to get back on my daily life.(not that free, tons of works really, but hey I still can make time for this hehe) 

For now, the best I can say is that I didn't feel so good with myself in a while, at peace with me.
It's been a long time since I felt sentimental. Ironically, it happens when I wanted to box as much emotions as possible to focus on my work but then what can I do?
Fixing our lives can be as much hard as fixing your soul. It requires a lonely and long work. And of course there will be scars that will continue forever, parts of your soul that will never know the true meaning of the word happiness.

I really don't know what life reserves for me. I am privileged to have seen what I have in this short and ephemeral joys of life. I am blessed for what I have right now. Only God knows, what lays ahead for me in the future. For now, I can just sit down and decide what am I going to do next, despite knowing that everything won't come easily. It requires a lot of hard works and patience! There's no turning back. Maybe I will have a crappy night but I hope tomorrow will be a new day. Even if the problems won't go away, even if they get worse, I'll still be here, as long as good people around me, it'll be just fine.

Yerp, and still I hope an eternity of bliss afterwards. Just like fairytales, I hope one day, I'll finish my story with " ...and they live happily ever after." someday, I hope. :)

I wrote this for you

Hi guys!(ad org read my blog ke pn?LOL)
anyways im back for real!HA HA!
I honestly don't know if this is a return. Perhaps I should create a new blog, yeke??hahah naahhh this one is just fine for now :D. This blogs helped at the worst time of my life, when I felt so lonely. Now I just need a fresh start, since so much has happened.
So here I am, and I wrote this just for you.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

fine.oh yes i am.

I'm a STRONG girl who keeps her STUFF in line. Even when I have TEARS going down on my face, I always manage to say those two words;
oh yes.yes I am :D